My Story

Welcome to my little corner of the internet.

Hello! I’m Pam. I’m a mom, a wife, a nature + magic lover, a seeker, a dreamer, and a complex human being.

Writing a blog was the last thing I ever thought I’d be doing in my life. Putting myself out there is something I’ve always avoided, not wanting to bring much attention to myself. But ever since I embarked on this journey I’ve been intuitively nudged to share about it as part of my healing process, and to help others along the way. I have been reluctant but then I quickly noticed that writing is very cathartic for me and I’ve been thoroughly enjoying the process of how free written expression has made me feel! As Jeff Brown says, “…writing is a profound way to liberate our emotional holdings, to give voice to that which heals us, and to validate our right to exist.”

My writings are part personal journal and part spiritual. All my life I’ve had spiritual, paranormal + supernatural experiences that have guided me to where I am today. Now, I explore the world of Spirit, the paranormal, life as a Mystic, navigating spirituality + healing, seeking magical ways to be, struggling with mental health issues, and afraid of many things.

I write about what I discover as I seek my inner truth, reclaim my sovereignty, and on finding myself and learning to love me there. I share my story so I can heal through clarifying my personal narrative, to bring awareness to living with mental illness, and to show by example that living your truth sparks your inner magic.

I hope to inspire others to connect with the Divine Universe through the heart, mind, soul, and nature; and to bravely step into your personal sovereignty and authenticity, because when you awaken to the truth of who you really are, magic happens, with opportunities for a blessed life. I’m living proof.

Read about my story below

“It’s important that we share our experiences with other people. Your story will heal you and your story will heal somebody else. When you tell your story, you free yourself and give other people permission to acknowledge their own story.”

Iylana Vanzant

My Story

My name is Pam and I was born and raised in Cleveland, Ohio. My parents divorced when I was 5 and I lived in 2 different worlds throughout my childhood. I am married to my beloved and we have 3 children + 1 angel baby. You can usually find me wandering around in the forest or visiting this giant freshwater ocean we have called Lake Erie. (My inner mermaid loooves water!) I go into nature as often as I can to connect, recharge, and heal. I enjoy topics on philosophy, theology, psychology, mythology, archeology, mysticism, Magick, esoteric, occultism, metaphysical subjects, and ancient knowledge. I’m on an endless search for truth. Music moves my soul, I love adventure and exploration, I’m obsessed with Disney (magic!), and a car enthusiast.

I was born a clairsentient Empath + highly sensitive person (HSP) landing into a dysfunctional family. My intuitive abilities developed very early on in life and I’ve slowly  been on this transformative journey, awakening to who I really am within, through my various life experiences including the paranormal, supernatural, and spiritual.

At a young age, I noticed that sometimes I could predict situations, see and hear Spirits — feel, see, and sense energy, feel and sense the emotions of others, and recognized animism.

I’ve always been curiously drawn to mythical/enchanting/mystical/fantasy type things + beings, and eventually I became engulfed in anything paranormal. With all of the many unusual supernatural things happening to me all the time, I just had to go searching for the reason as to why! The mysterious Otherworld has always beckoned me as far back as I can remember, and it feels familiar — like “home.”

In 2012 was when it really started to get my attention in much bigger ways and I couldn’t ignore the call any longer. Once I devoted myself to this path my spiritual journey took off and I started to heal as I began the inner journey of going deep within to scrutinize and drag all my issues to the surface and deprogram all my bullshit (inner work). This also gave me experience with the ascension/awakening process, along with helping me to develop my psychic and healing abilities even further. I will always be a work in progress.

I have a keen interest in human behavior, the study of the mind, ancient cultures, and always dreamt of being an archeologist. (Josh Gates has my dream life!)  In college I studied anthropology and psychology, and more recently neuroplasticity and cognitive behavioral therapy. I’m currently researching and studying Celtic Shamanism, Archangels, and further expanding my esoteric knowledge under renowned paranormal investigator + psychic medium Michelle Belanger. My entire journey has been researching and studying, studying, and more studying.

I also live with an anxiety disorder: clinically diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, and Agoraphobia.

I am an Avalon Priestess. I have deeply trained for three years in the ways of Avalon through the sisterhood – Sisters of the Mists.

I connect with the Divine through living in harmony with the cycles of nature.

I work closely with my guides, Spirit, ancestors, Archangels, and Celtic Gods and Goddesses, but I’m open to all paths and pantheons.

I was raised in the Roman Catholic religion in which I wholehearted believed in and followed religiously, until around 10 years ago. Now, I consider myself a recovering Catholic and a polytheistic Celtic Pagan. Despite being raised in a religious household my mother was the one who sparked my interested in metaphysical subjects by teaching me how to strengthen my gifts through tarot, telekinesis, and telepathy and I loved her metaphysical book collection.

My heritage is Slovak/Polish. I was raised with Polish traditions. I’m third generation American Czechoslovakian. My great-grandparents immigrated from Czechoslovakia in the early 1900s. My grandparents spoke Polish (and I wish they had taught us but they wanted the family to be American so that meant only speaking English.) The ancestry on my mothers side is British/Scottish.

I believe in embracing our shadows as well as our light, along with embracing our humanity in order to embody our Divinity. That we are closer to our soul the closer we get to our humanness. We’re here to be humans, not transcend it. I’m not completely a “love & light” type of person, shadow work is extremely important, but I do believe Love is the way and the answer.

This is my journey reclaiming my sovereignty.

Most importantly, I want to thank you for taking the time to read my blog and for following me on this soulful journey of mine. It truly means the world to me.